It sounds like this...



What do I do to ignore them behind me

Do I follow my instincts blindly?

Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams

And give in the sad thoughts

That are maddening?

Do I sit here and try to stand it

Or do I try to catch them red-handed?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phonniness

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin

I make the right moves but I'm lost within

I put on my daily facade but then

I just end up getting hurt again by myself



Myself



I ask why

But in my mind I find

I can't rely on myself



I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all to much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spins

With thoughts of failure sinking in



If I turn my back I'm defenceless

And to go blindly seems senceless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on

Then they'll take from me till everything is gone

If I let them go I'll be outdone

But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun

If I'm killed for the questions like a cancer

Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself



Myself



I ask why

But in my mind I find

I can't rely on myself...



How do you think I've lost so much

I'm so afraid I'm out of touch

How do you expect I will know what to do

When all I know is what you tell me to



Don't you

know

I can't tell you how to make it

go

No matter what I do, how hard I

try

I can't seem to convinse myself

why

I'm stuck on the outside...



I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all to much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spins

With thoughts of failure sinking in...